Insanity, Thy Name is Life

Life is crazy.

Well, when you're me it is. Everything seems a little topsy-turvy right now, so I figure I'll just see what I end up writing here for now.

Some random thoughts:

--I got a new Nightwish CD, "Dark Passion Play", and I really like their new lead singer, Annette something-or-other. The CD kicks ass. The instrumental track "Last of the Wilds" (I think that's it) is absolutely fantastic. There's just something about fiddles that makes me jump up and dance. I guess it's the Irish in me ;]

--I'm ecstatically happy even though it's a miserable day outside. Here's why:
~1. I saw T [just about my favoritest person] yesterday.
~2. I'm going to see him again if it's nice on Friday.
~3. The weather forecast for Friday is "partly cloudy" - but no rain.

--Yesterday I danced in the rain. I was freezing and wet and little bits of hail pecked me all over but I couldn't stop laughing. After being so depressed and horrid-feeling for so long, it's amazing to finally be able to feel happy. It's all T's fault ;P. He just makes me happy in a way no one else can. I call him my Prozac, because he is.

--I talked on the phone with my hugglebuddy-slash-all-around-fab-person,

rockinwriter, late last night. I've been freaking out about some stuff and she's really helped me through it. She's verry awesome and a BitchMonster in training. I'm probably a bad influence on her.

--I have a new story idea I've been mulling over. I really should edit the 2 full-length novels I have, but one is over 200 pages and until I make some money it's rather expensive to pay to print a copy I'm only going to doodle all over. I have a list of thoughts that have occurred to me about this new story, which I'll probably post soon...

--If I'm able to write again after months without inspiration, it'll make me much happier.

Last one:
--This summer looks ready to rock, if I can get some things sorted first.

~*How I feel & what I want.

~*What I should do as opposed to what will really end up happening.

~*Love, friendship, and the compatibility of the two.

~*Being a flirtatious bitch - that kinda needs to stop.

~*Getting my parents to stop looking at me like an alien.

~*Figuring out why, despite how great things are right now, I still want so badly to SI. Every single day.

Clock's ticking on May. Come June 21st, I want these things to be unimportant. Or at least not mind-crushingly important, like they are now.

Still, I'm happy. Deliriously so.

I'm amazed at the beautiful people who surround me - and at the fact that they love me despite my flaws.

 

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